"Promise me, O women of Jerusalem, by the gazelles and wild deer, not to awaken love until the time is right." Song of Songs 2:7
Hiiiiiii!! *waving crazily at the computer* I'm such a weirdo! lol On a serious note, I have not been on here since November...Can you believe it?! Well, as I have posted earlier on my FB and IG, this is not out of laziness or pure disobedience. I find much purpose in this "break" that I have had. God has really been working in me in these past few months & he is definitely not finished with me yet. :) In addition, there are some things in the works that I believed would be kinda moving me forward from this place of posting on here, but as for now that is not the case. I actually felt very moved by God, to post a week or so ago, but I realized that it just wasn't it. Then, God said..."This is what I want you to share," and I believe this is exactly what he wanted me to return with.
Although this is geared towards my sisters I believe my bros can get something from this as well. This speaks directly from a place of experience...Heartbreak and confusion is something that I have dealt with for too long, and thank God I can say that he has healed my broken heart and delivered me from the grasp that the enemy had [or let's just say, THOUGHT he had] on my life at some point in time:
To my sisters in Christ: If you find yourself in this cycle of praying for God to show you something about that guy in your life, in order to reassure you that it is not IT.. I am 100% confident in telling you that, signs have already been presented showing you that this is not IT. Those red flags...do not ignore. Sisters, you do NOT deserve to be strung along, misused, and constantly hurt. You do not have to experience the confusion. There is no fun in: waiting on "him" to become more serious about the relationship, lurking around to see if you'll catch him out somewhere he said he wouldn't be/catch him in a lie, or anxious when receiving a message from a friend thinking they're going to tell you "he" did such & such when you were not around. And do not beat yourself up about it! "This" just isn't IT and you probably grew impatient, deciding to choose your own way over God's. And even after realizing that...it is not too late to refocus and come back to Him in repentance & full submission. It's not easy to let go, but it IS possible, and SOOOOOO worth it. You are beautiful and loved. Walk away from that drama {in full faith} trusting that God will heal your broken heart, fill your voids, fill you with peace & love (no matter what season you are in), and one day send you the man who he created perfectly fit for you. HIS love story for you is not meant to be drama-filled & built off of a lack of loyalty and commitment. There is light at the end of the tunnel sis. Trust & believe, there is!
The enemy sees the potential that you have in Christ, and he is fully aware that his time is running out. He uses people, relationships, and certain things as distractions to get you to lose focus of what's important-your purpose found through your personal relationship with Christ. We live and we learn, but I can tell you right now...that time spent riding on that emotional roller coaster with this dude is not worth it. I once thought: "that is what it means to be in a relationship. I mean come on, all relationships have its ups and downs." But no! My mind was misconstrued and clouded by confusion himself, Satan. He knew what my weakness was, and knew that once I fell into his traps it would be difficult to get out. BUT God. Sheesh! And if he can do it for me, he can definitely do it for you. Trust him. And do not allow the enemy to consume your mind with the thoughts of "what ifs" and "why nots." If you let that guy go already, let it be. Stay rest and assured that there is a reason it did not work when you tried. Even if he tries texting or calling you, saying how he misses you...Sis, he had the time to show you that he wanted you when he had you. And if he is not of God, I am pretty sure that his actions are not God-led. Choose LOVE and choose GOD. Do not let your emotions control you in the situation, but listen to the Holy Spirit. Confusion is not of God, it is of the enemy. So, if he was not serious about you then, do you think he really changed in a matter of a week??? (I mean, if God is in control anything is possible.) On the other hand, do not make excuses for him...you know deep down that it isn't it.
Seek God. Give it to him. Grow in your relationship with him. Love him and learn from him what love is, so that you can grow & learn the way you should be loving on yourself. Seek him for your standards and do not settle for less than what he reveals is the best he has for you. To conclude, In the time that you are not with anyone, there are many things that you can learn about yourself, in order to prepare you before he sends your guy that way. ;-) I pray that God fills you with peace when making the decision to let the toxic relationships go! In Jesus name..Amen!
Be encouraged & God Bless. Xo
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